Why I don't do relationships

I'm not really a person for relationships. Never been and never will be. Though I get lonely sometimes and in these periods in my life I get tempted to start something nice, sweet and romantic with someone. I got seduced a month ago by a very beautiful woman. She was five years older then me, but very single and very soon head over heels with me. I don'tg know if I really fell in love with her, but I liked her more then anything. We spend a lot of time together and the sex was amazing. From the very first moment. She never got tired of it and I really needed someone like that. Kissing for hours on the couch, just cuddling, feeling, I loved it all with her. But ... Being alone and single isn't anything I can say goodbye to just like that or that easily. I just love to go out and party with my friends. A week ago one of my friends threw a b-day party at her place. My GF didn't want to go with me. I practically begged her, but she decided not to go, so I went without her. The party was fun and nice. Afterwards we decided to take a last drink in town. We went to a small bar, where my eyes instantly found a woman. Well ... She was obviously younger then me, but she was in good company of a very good looking guy. I just couldn't keep my eyes off of her. The way she moved her fingers through her curly hair, how she crossed her legs. I got hotter and hotter for her. My GF texted me a few times, but I just couldn't get myself into answering her. At some point the guy left with another guy. Not just a littlebit further on in the bar, but outside. I just winked at my friends who know me better then anyone and I devided to go and have a talk with the girl. She got nervous, but that made me even more interested in her. After an hour I had learned that she was engaged with the guy. They are planning on getting married this summer actually. I told her that was no problem. That I didn't want to marry her, but just really wanted to fuck her. Being in a relationship wasn't her argument not to do so, but when I told her I myself was in a relationship too ... She got really interested. Something in that idea made it exciting to her I think. That she wouldn't be the only one cheating. She messaged her BF that hse went home, cause he would be back. I didn't message my GF at all ... I didn't even wat to think about her at all in that moment. I took her with me to my place. She was so cute! Sweet and innocent. Never been with a woman before in her life ... She was one of the best kissers on the planet though. Sucking my lips as no one had ever sucking them before and as my hands were roaming her sexy body she no boundaries at all left. I pressed her against the wall in my bedroom and took her clothes of rapidly. Only her sexy white satin panties were still left on her by that moment soaking underbody. My hand dissapeared in them and she pushed me away. For moment I was afraid I had gone too far too fast, but she just grinned and took her panties off. I wanted to take her to the bed, but she shoko her head and pulled me into the kiss again. While her tongue was everwywhere and deep inside my mouth most of all, my fingers slipped in between her legs again and entered her. She spread her legs for me and moaned in the most horny way. Soft but determined. She had very small breasts. But soft and sweet. I pumped my fingers in and out of her rapidly and the sound of her juicy pussy was amazing. I loved it! I realized in that moment I wasn't in love with my GF ... I could fall in love with any person that was able to give me feelings like these. When she relaxed on my hand after a minute of pumping already I carried her to the bed. She touched me in an exploring way. I told her that she didn't have to do anything. That she could make me come just by looking at me and kissing me. So that's what she did ... I made her cum three times that night. Twice with my fingers and once with my tongue. Actually I really would have loved to do her with my strapon too, but I decided no to. I wanted to show her nothing but Lesbian love. I didn't want to remember her of her BF in that moment. Her lucky BF, who gets to fuck her for the rest of his life :-( She didn't stay ... She left after showering and having a drink. I couldn't help but kiss her one long last time before she left. I told my GF ... And the weirdest thing happened. She didn't want to break up. But we did. I'm not a relationship person. At least ... Not yet. We still have sex though. Very good hot and steamy sex. Many times. I completely love and adore her in that for sure!!